Road Trip on the mind

Posted on Thursday, 31 July 2014

I have wanted to visit Nashville longer than I can remember. From what I have read and seen and heard it seems like the place where I belong, where my soul longs for. I have been planning a trip for the end of August, a road trip and photo shoot and all the parts are coming together and I couldn't be more excited. Here are some inspiration photos for  the vision I have for the shoot.

Monday Mantra ~ Your Journey

Posted on Monday, 28 July 2014

Not too long ago I was hanging out with some friends and we were sharing embarrassing stories and the topic of journals came up. I remember that I still had mine from when I was in high school. I immediately went looking for it, found it and opened it up. The first page I found was a list I wrote when I was 16, I had forgotten that I wrote this. The list was things I wanted to accomplish in my life and on it was - to become an actress. This surprised me because I didn't remember feeling this way and always believed I came to this revelation years later. When I was 16 I was incredibly shy, awkward and a huge science geek and I believed I could only work in the medical field, that acting was meant for other people, that I was somehow not worthy of such a thing.

I still pursued that medical career, even working in the ER for nearly three years, but no matter what I did I could not shake this desire in me. And now I am pursuing that dream I had when I was 16 and it took many years to move past all the resistance. When I let go of the need for anyone to believe in me and for anyone to understand my journey, it all fell into place. There is a freedom in owning what you want to do and who you want to be, it's your own journey, your own life. And sometimes we may not know what that journey is, and that is ok! Just remember it's your journey.

Fashion Fridays // Prints on Prints

Posted on Friday, 25 July 2014

I am not one to shy away from colour, in fact I welcome it. And the right colours (pinks/orange/purple/turquoise) with the right prints make for some really cool and bold looks. Mixing prints can sometimes be a scary thing to do and if done the wrong way makes you look a little over the top. I think the key is to stick to the same tones and vibe. I have a southwestern vibe going on with my look in both the top and the shirt. The top is actually a shift dress I tucked into my shirt, I do this with alot of my dresses to add some extra variety to my wardrobe. For me its always a feeling, I will try something on and it should just feel right and make you feel great! This whole look (minus the vintage boots and cute cali tote) is from my favourite shop, obviously the one and only Bicyclette. Oh and pictures by the lovely Scarlet O'Neill and the boys are just well dudes at the coffee shop, ha.

In the works

Posted on Thursday, 24 July 2014

Ok I got a confession. I have too many projects on the go. I just cant help it, my mind is always swirling with new ideas and new things I want to try and explore. I am blaming it on being a gemini, I can do that right? ha! With my multiple film projects, auditions, blog posts for bicyclette and a slew of other things I do there never seems to be enough time to do them all. I am not Superwoman, I am not even Sailor Moon(but that would be really cool). So I could pick one thing and just go with it...but since that totally goes against my personality and nature I am just going to have to live with the fact that each of my passions will come into fruition when the time is right. And one of those projects happens to be a vintage etsy shop. I love vintage and frankly my closet just cannot hold all the pieces I have collected. It's time to find them a new home. So this is still in the works but my hope is that I will have the shop up soon! Here's a little preview :)

Monday Mantra ~ Be You

Posted on Sunday, 20 July 2014

I have an instagram series called monday mantra and I know that it has really inspired me and has got me through the monday blues and I think people really enjoy a little jolt of inspiration. I wanted to continue the series but on the blog so I can reflect on the concept a little bit more than I can on instagram.

This week's monday mantra is simple and true: be you. Being authentically you is so powerful. We have all been created unique and I really believe we each have our own journey and purpose. Being you is following that authentic voice within and believing their is a reason why you are here. When we live by the constraints of others peoples ideas or what we believe we should be doing we are depriving the world of our own unique gifts that only we can give. Being you is believing that you can be and do whatever is calling to you. Believing in yourself comes from loving yourself. Our beliefs are things we can create and can change at any point.

My girl Oprah says is best in her life class when she discusses one of her favourite versus in the bible which goes..."if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'move from here to there' and it will move, nothing will be impossible for you" I love this concept that faith can move mountains, and regardless of what you believe in, your belief in YOU in being YOU will guide you to your desires.

So what is your heart calling you to do? Mine seems to change by the day and for a while I thought that was a bad thing, that I was only allowed to focus on one thing and only be one thing. Then I realized being ME was having many interests and wanting to do many things and that is totally ok. Some days I want to be a designer, other days a script writer, other days a good daughter and a good friend. I want to do it all, all my passions and why not!

Being you, whatever that you is is the best thing you can do, it will bring you happiness and joy.

Fashion Fridays // Country Girl

Posted on Friday, 18 July 2014

Even though I live in the city and I love my pretty and charming apartment in a Victorian house, I just think my heart belongs in the country. Being surrounded by nature always grounds me, the stillness and simplicity found in the country is like no other. I spent the day with my mom running errands and taking styling photos for our respective blogs (yup she's going to have one too) and we went to a farm area that I use to bike to years ago. Anytime I felt stressed I would hop on the mountain bike and ride through the open and rural streets passing horses and cows along the way, it was bliss...

summer shoot inspiration

Posted on Thursday, 17 July 2014

I have been in full planning mode with one of my besties, Scarlet who also happens to be a super talented photographer. We are making one of my bucket list destinations come true and travelling to Nashville at the end of August for a road trip and photo shoot. I will be part model and part stylist for the shoot along with some other super talented and amazing women. As we gear up for the shoot (we just rented the most amazing looking trailer from airbnb) I have been feverishly pinning and saving inspiration photos. I came across a look book shoot from Nic Del Mar that has all of the elements in perfect alignment with part of the vision I have for the shoot. I am in love with these images and just had to share them...

A birthday and a head injury

Posted on Wednesday, 16 July 2014

I was scared to write about this before I could fully understand it, actually I don't think I was planning on writing about it at all. And then I thought maybe in the writing about it I might understand it, understand the circumstances of my life in this moment. If I was going to continue to be a storyteller....then I must continue to write stories, the real ones. 

It was Friday the 13th and a full moon. It's called a honey moon and it's pretty rare for a full moon to fall on both Friday the 13th and in June. And June is my birthday month so I'm going to say that it's extra rare. The last time this happened was June 13th, 1919. So why is all this relevant? I am not a superstitious person by any means, I let a black cat cross my path all the time! But after what happened to me that day I couldn't help but wonder what it all means, what is this occurrence trying to tell me. Despite superstition I do believe in signs, I think things happen to guide and point us in certain directions. 

Now after all this moon talk let me get into this story. I was sitting in a coffee shop with a good friend, we were chatting and discussing future projects as we always do. It was a beautiful day that day, the weather was pretty much perfect and I was sporting a super cute floral vintage dress and my black felt hat. I was sitting right in front of the open window, back facing the window as I was fully engaged in my conversation. Then out of nowhere with no warning sign I feel a sudden blow to the head. Commotion erupts in the coffee shop and I quickly try to decipher what happened as blood starts to run down my face (it was a metal chair thrown at my head). Instinctively I moved to the floor, I was sitting in a chair so the only logical reason I must have done this was to prevent myself from falling far if I were to pass out. So there I was sitting on the floor, hand to my bloody head, watching the blood pour around me (sorry for the gruesome visuals). I was in shock and could only think of the worst: I was going to have a brain injury, life would never be the same. A lot was happening while I was sitting there, someone from the coffee shop ran after the guy, another person was on the phone with the paramedics, my friend was on the phone with my parents and the most amazing saviour (yes she was my saviour in that moment) came to my aid and talked me through everything. She asked me questions, kept me calm and reassured me that everything was going to be alright. To this day I don't know who that girl is but know that I will always be grateful for the kindness and compassion she showed me that day. 

It's weird not for one moment was I angry with that man, I know and did know that he has a mental illness and his pains run deep. All I wish for him is to find solitude, to find a glimmer of love because I think thats what he really needs. And I was shown so much love that day, love from all the people concerned for me in that coffee shop, love from the paramedics and love from my friends and family. The interesting part to this whole thing was I am totally fine! Yes I had a scrape and a bump on my head but that has now healed and no brain injury, no concussion, it's as if nothing even happened. I remember in that moment the only thing that mattered, the only thing I wanted was to be healthy. It's interesting that when something traumatic happens to you you go back to your basic needs, all the other worries in life (like not getting the part or being dumped) doesn't matter. When we have our health anything is still possible, and you know even when we don't have our health anything is still possible because of one thing: love. 

A week later my dearest friends surprised me with a birthday party (one they were planning before the injury) and I was reminded again of the wonderful things I do have in my life. Gratitude can pull you out of some dark places. So when I am feeling dumb, or not good enough or not cool enough I can remind myself of that moment where all that mattered is my health, which I have! I still believe there is a greater purpose for the thing that happened to me, what that is exactly I still don't know... but my eyes are open.